So, as I said, I'm going to be posting some more of my journal entries from the first few weeks after we found out we were pregnant!
January 26, 2011 reads...
I am now 5w2d…my symptoms are almost nonexistent. I still have mild night sweats, subtly sore boobs, and I have to pee quite a bit…so for now, I don’t really feel pregnant. Even though I am yearning to “show” and feel pregnant, I know I must take advantage of these blithe days…as I am fully aware that there is still a possibility that soon these days will be absent (at least for a little bit anyway).
Ryan is staying with us now as he takes a class in Oklahoma City. I. WANT. TO. TELL. HIM. It is all I can do not to burst out with joy and jump up and down and tell him he is going to be an UNCLE. For now, and for the next 18 days, I have to keep my lips sealed.
Anytime my parents call, I feel myself rushing to get off the phone so I don’t slip. I have seldom called them since we found out, for the same reason…so, my apologies mom and dad.
I find myself praying for our little baby over and over throughout each day. I also find myself bathing myself and Zach in prayer as well; the Lord knows I need it. How will we ever raise a child? Only through the grace, mercy, guidance, and forgiveness of our Lord Jesus Christ. That is my confidence.
Oh…I ordered lil baby Schnorrenberg’s first toys! I had a Pottery Barn gift card from Christmas and I received a $10 off Baby Amazon in a magazine, so I went ahead and used them! I got a PB hippo thumbie, which is a little tiny 12x12 blanket that may turn in to his/her favorite blankie and PB wooden colorful stacking rings. I have already received the PB stuff in the mail and I LOVE them! Also, from Amazon I ordered a little colorful and texturized peacock that has all kinds of things babies need for early development from Lamaze. I can’t wait to see it!!
That’s it for now!
February 1, 2011 reads...
I'm just 6w1d and the nausea has definitely set in....thankfully, we are in the middle of a blizzard and Zach and I got to stay home today! Hopefully we are out tomorrow too so I can try and get used to this before I head back to work. I've researched a few remedies and once we are able to drive again I think we might venture out and try to find a few of these things to see if they help. Thankfully there has been no vomitting yet, but I have definitely felt it coming.
Lord, please help me through these next 6 weeks!
...Yes! We are pregnant!!
We found out the morning of January 16!! Since it was a Sunday morning, it was sure hard to keep our excitement down at church, especially when my sister-in-law introduced us to our future pediatrician!! I have been keeping a journal-so over the next week or so I will post some of my entries.
January 16, 2011 (My first entry)
Wow! I'm about 4 weeks pregnant!
My husband and I were planning on trying soon, but it looks like God had plans for a little earlier than we intended!! We couldn't be more thrilled!
I really didn't feel pregnant at all (not that I know how it should feel), but now that I know I am, I can pinpoint some symptoms that I thought were just normal.
My early symptoms:
-dizziness when I stood up too fast
-and the really weird one I had this morning that made me take a test....I was the thirstiest I had ever been!! I was laying in bed and woke up because my mouth was SO dry! Luckily I always sleep with a glass of water on my bedside table....I sucked down that water and hopped out of bed to fill my glass again.
I don't think that is a normal pregnancy symptom...but something in my head was telling me to take a test. So, I grabbed a test from under my sink (thinking, "I'm crazy for even testing", "this is stupid", "you're wasting a test", "you are going to be disappointed") and a few minutes later I was jumping up and down and squealing (all while my husband was still sound asleep in bed)!! Quickly, I was trying to think of a good way to tell him, I couldn't believe it actually was positive! Someone pinch me, please! As I walked out of our room, I grabbed my husbands new polariod camera (we like to be a little retro sometimes) and decided I would take a polariod of the pregnancy test and tape it to our dog's collar and then let Roscoe wake him up by jumping up in bed. Well, I had never taken a picture with the polaroid and wasn't aware of the lighting issues....my picture just looked like a white bar going across a black sky...first plan failed.
Soon after, not being able to focus on the task at hand, I broke down in tears praising God for the blessing He had given us. I went into our "nursery" room (which right now is our office), I laid on the floor, and prayed to God that he would give us the strength, encouragement, grace, and mercy to raise a child!
Minutes later, I got up from the floor, ran to the kitchen (hoping Zach had not yet woken up) and the only thing I could think to do was write a quick letter to him and send it in to our room on Roscoe's collar (lame, I know). Well, after writing and re-writing the letter, I went into our room to get Roscoe...by this time Zach was awake and I couldn't help myself so I leaped up onto the bed and shoved my letter in his face while I held the pregnancy test in my hand behind my back.
His reaction was priceless and will be forever in my memory! We hugged, we cried, we laughed, we took pictures, we prayed...and we have done this all day long!
**Zach was a little upset that he didn't get the excitement of looking at the pregnancy test together so after lunch I took another one so we could be goofy and look at it together as if it were for the first time!
Finally, we went to church, and ironically met our soon to be pediatrician. My SIL has 3 children and when I was talking to her today at church, her pediatrician came up (he goes to our church) and asked her how her new one was doing...she then introduced me to him and told me he was the best ped in the world! It was all I could do to not tell them our news...I can't wait to tell my SIL this story when we finally get to tell our family!
I know, I know....its been OVER a month since I have posted!
Aside from that, my brother asked Shayna to marry him on Friday!
He was staying with us all week because he taking a class in OKC. He could hardly concentrate all week because he had just picked up the ring from Israel's before he left to come down here. All week he would talk about "the big night," all while rambling off ideas of what he should do. Studying was next to impossible, however, he did get some in.
Friday night Shayna came down for what she thought was going to be a double date night with Zach and I. A few hours before they left for dinner, "it dawned on me" that I had to babysit that night (which I really did). Well, anyways, one thing led to another and by 5:45 they were headed out the door, just the two of them. Zach and I hurried them out trying to hide our excitement and knowing they had reservations for 6 at Cafe de Brazil. The night before Ryan had met up with a guy at the resturant and planned out a romantic evening complete with an outside balcony set up just for the two of them. (*Remember this was on one of those days that it was absolutely beautiful out) Music was playing, candles were lit (or were at least meant to be lit), champange was waiting...all at the end of a rose petal walkway.
I am happy to say that we are all very excited for Shayna to be a part of our family!! They are perfect for each other. I couldn't imagine a better lady to be my new sister-in-law!
Thank you, Lord, for bringing Shayna and Ryan together!